TW: metaphorical mentions of disordered eating and mental illness? growing pains? it is poetry, after all.
know your triggers and stay safe everyone♡
in love with the sky
someone grab me
by my ankles, i’m floating away;
pull me down and tell me to sit straight,
stay in place and don’t stray away.
hand me a blanket, i’m fading,
the cold settled in my weakened bones;
i let it in, but i’m too far gone
and she was a stranger at my door;
i mistook her for my saviour,
and she gave me wings but she never told me i’d lose control
or that it’s impossible,
controlling the direction the wind blows
it all happened so fast
so grab me, hold me
i’m floating away
hand me a blanket for warmth and ask me how i’m doing and if i need help
and if i feel okay.
it’s freezing out here
winter jackets in july and a scarf of rope
tight around my neck
so high up but the clouds suffocate me
grab me, pull me down, kiss my forehead
hold me down, make me stay here
i’m in love with the sky but she’s out of reach
so i exhaust my soul searching clouds, empty
and starve, freeze, float, until death reaches me
like a balloon, but a winged beast
grab me by my ankles
light a fire, keep me warm, stay near
tell me to sit,
tell me to breathe,
tell me to eat,
tell me to see.
i’m so high up the clouds are my only escape
cotton candy, white
this pain, this numbness
sweet, addictive
but i can see the earth from here
far beneath my feet, never grounded
so grab me and pull me down and away from her
away from here.
maybe you could build a time machine
and erase her from our memories?
i feel sick, i’m fading and my skin is cracking and i’m dizzy, hallucinating
i can see stars
so high up my fingertips trace their outlines
and i’m numb to the burn but i’m floating away;
someone grab me please i’m floating away,
grab me by my ankles and bring me back
take me away from here.
…
get me away from her.
So beautifully written, so much emotion!
this is really beautiful! I definitely feel this to my bones <3